Full Time Blog – Craig

Full time Year 1 Student
First Term
Wow! It has been an amazing first term at School. I am so encouraged by being in the company of such awesome people and getting to know them better. Something for me which is great about being at School is the community and the sense of family that the School is built around. It is unlike anything I’ve ever come across but it models what Kingdom Families really look like. Seeing the great relationships that have been built and continue to be built is amazing. To be included in this, getting to know people better, is awesome. I actually feel safe and like I’m not going to be judged by people which is starting to help me come out my shell.
For me it has been awesome to come and do something like this. Discovering our identity in Christ is the crucial yet most overlooked part, I believe, in the Christian faith. We are living in a time where that is shifting and where the word ‘Christian’ is more than just a name. I’m excited to be a part of that shift. Something that is also unlooked is discovering that our Father loves us very much. Part of that is because, from what I’ve seen, too often this is outweighed by the value for information and knowledge. However, information and knowledge alone will not produce the fruits of relationship in our lives and will leave us very dried out. Father wants relationship with us and He wants our hearts much more than our service. When I’m at home I love to worship. I love to put on worship music and sing along both with the songs and in my own words but I’m actually finding that He’d just prefer me to sit down and just know His heart for me which I Love. I don’t feel I have to perform for Him. He is showing this to me more and more.
I’m also learning that I don’t have to get up and do loads of stuff to prove my worth or who I am but that I am known by Him and He is in me. Therefore, the simplicity of me being somewhere can release His presence there and I can expect to see change. This applies for all of us who believe in and love Jesus. I’m also really seeking Holy Spirit to show me things as this brings true transformation. I love hearing the great truths and reading them in my bible – it’s great to quote them and read them, but it’s only Holy Spirit that will transform and bring about true change. So I’m at a place of discovering and having dreams and pictures at the moment which is really awesome as I’ve not really had this before. Saying that, I still want more so let’s see what happens in the next few months. Yayy!
Second Term
I can’t believe I’m heading into my last term already! I am so loving what I’m learning at School. I have to be honest, some days I’ve learnt so much that when people ask me about it I can’t put it into words yet! But I know it’s good because I feel the character change in me, I know the truth is like a sword and while it can be real uncomfortable at times I need it. If I want to be a Christian by life and not just name I need to live in truth and that means hearing stuff that makes me feel uncomfortable at times.
I’ve just loved our last reading assignments of God’s Generals. Its great to look at the lives of other greats who have gone before us: to see how much and how far they went and what exploits they did for the King and His Kingdom. So if they are my floor then the possibilities are literally endless! I can be 100% me with 100% of Him flowing through me, which makes the flavor of Christ in me unique and wonderful, and you can see this in the lives of these Generals. We can also see it in the lives of each other, and the expression of Christ in each of us and how that is different to each person.
I also particularly enjoyed reading Moral Revolution which looks at healthy sexuality in a world where sex is literally a self seeking, self-centered twisted thing when God made it to be literally something that is so holy and speaks of our covenant with Him and how that mirrors in a man and woman coming together – its jaw dropping!
I’ve been having a lot of fun worshipping recently. Sometimes I no longer need to worship with words as I don’t feel the need to sing and I just stand or sit in silence. It’s about connecting with Him and from that connection, worship can get really creative. I’ve started using flags much more as part of my worship and hearing what colours to use as well and then seeing things happen. When I was at church I felt that I should wave green flag during worship (green can represent healing). During the preach I start feeling this pain shooting down my right arm so I shared it as a word of knowledge and two people responded to receive prayer. During another worship time I used my red flag and the atmosphere of the worship changed to an unstructured worship moment which was so beautiful that it felt like Jesus just walked in. I will keep going with flags as Holy Spirit has showed me a lot about breakthrough and freedom for myself and for many others both through flags and in movement.
I’m coming to the end of what has been three weeks away from School as I write this. I’ve missed being around everyone, but I’ve just had an awesome time hanging out with Jesus and letting Him love me. I don’t honestly know what has been happening and why I am crying but it has been wonderful and I just want more! And what is great is there is always more!
Year One Final blog
What an amazing year it has been! I have so loved being part of the School for this first year and I am excited for the next year also. It has now been a few days since graduating and I am so missing everybody already. There is something special about family, a family that is there for you in all your moments and that is awesome! I so much love being part of the community. The culture in the School is unlike anything I’ve seen demonstrated anywhere else, but it is the Kingdom way and I believe it’s the way Jesus would have modelled with His disciples in the early days of the church. Did the disciples and Jesus manage to get through so many packs of biscuits though in nine months – one day we will find out!
For Me I feel I have grown more in confidence this year, I have learned and am learning that God is really good and that it’s okay to come to Him with everything. This means that when something isn’t sitting right in me I can take it to Him and wait and listen to what He has to say about it. I still have insecurities I feel I need to deal with but I’m learning not to dwell on my shortcomings but instead to fix my eyes on Him, to what He has done and to what He is doing. I find it helpful to journal what He’s doing or what He’s currently saying, to write down all that is going on inside me, my concerns or on the other hand something I’m overjoyed about. I love looking back and seeing the promises, the testimonies of things that have happened as it builds faith in me to see the same thing again and fills me with courage. I am becoming more courageous in the prophetic and I believe that yes I do hear His voice. I know His voice and He wants me to be fully confident of that, not in a controlling way but always pointing me in love to the right way. I am amazed already at the different prophecies that are coming to pass. Some of these have been incredible and have happened within a few hours! He is so good!
I am so going to miss those who are leaving us. I am so grateful for the friendship and inspiration that each person in School has bought to me. The thing with being inspirational is that most people don’t even realise the impact they have on you and that they will leave a giant footprint in my life. I will miss different friends who are going off to far lands to bring about Father’s Kingdom. Equally I will miss those who are venturing into the church and land closer to home to bring about the Kingdom there and everywhere they go. Though I will miss these people and though I don’t want them to go, I am excited for what Father has in store for each of us. I am fully expectant. I am excited to remain in contact with these people that are family and meet up years down the line and share what Father has been doing in our lives and in the lives of others.
I’d also like to add on here, as it is my last blog for the year on the School website, my thanks to Lauren who has been very helpful in making sure my grammar is good. Lauren has been my Head of Year and anyone coming next year is in for a treat. Lauren has the most amazing ability to believe in people more than they believe in themselves. She is remarkable. I am so excited to be coming back for Year Two. I feel like good foundations have been built. Let’s build the house!
Craig Year 1 Student Full-time.